Rant #30505

I feel pathetic and I hate everything about myself. Sometimes I wish I woke up dead but then I always feel guilty about it seconds later knowing how I have it far better than many people. Everything I think I’m good at, there are people who are way better and I know it and it makes me miserable knowing how I’ll never be able to be as good as others. I feel like I desperately crave people’s validation yet I feel selfish thinking that I really don’t deserve it.