I'm in pain often. I've accepted that. I'm having heart issues that will hopefully be diagnosed soon. It's gotten to the point where I collapse at performances and embarrass myself. Sometimes I go to the park to swing and forget my worries for a while, and I'll make scenarios in my head. Recently, I've started seeing things in the park that aren't normal. One I've seen more than once is a shadow creature. It's about 7 feet tall, and when I first saw it, I was terrified. But now, I'm finding more comfort in it. I don't know why, but I know I'm not crazy. It's probably not real, but it feels real. When I was 12, I had an imaginary friend. I turned her into a character in my universe, and then she went away. I wonder if this creature is like that thing. I have hallucinated before, sometimes while I'm driving. A red light turned green when it didn't, and a white dog ran in front of my car before disappearing. (Neither were real)