I HATE how when I date someone it I always remember the time I got sexually assaulted by my ex when we were dating and im genuinely disgusted with myself I haven’t told anyone. I’m i should’ve stop him from touching my thighs and me sitting on his lap. I’m so disappointed and disgusted with myself. I can’t take the pain and I don’t wanna die and hurt anyone. Idk what should I do im so disgusted with me and him. I don’t ever want it to happen again to me or anyone. I’m so tired and I’m scared it to happen in the relationship im in now. I don’t wanna grow wings rn and I don’t wanna hurt anyone. I’m just so tired…..