I'm in the urge of hurting myself again. I've been clean for months, and I've never felt proud of myself. I always think that there's something wrong with me-I'm not diagnosed tho. These past few months, I've been working on my mental health lately, I can't go back to the dark that eats me while slowly killing me. It's hard. It's so hard to keep up in school while trying to fix your mental health. They say I'm smart, that I'm capable of doing anything, a burden, lazy-name it. I always think that I'm wasting my time as a teen. I'm 61 (reversed), just a kid trying to live her life, but life is really not that kind. Someday I want to live my life, not just to survive :)