I feel like a failure, even though that isn't true. I've had a decent amount of good things happen to me this year. But it isn't enough. Nothing is ever enough. Why does everyone else make it seem so much easier? I want more friends. I want to become closer to people. How do I do that? It's like I'm an idiot. I'm anxious about not having a job soon. I don't fucking know what I'm doing with my life. I feel like im always waiting for something to go my way, I need a PERMANENT FUCKING SOLUTION. Christ.