:( you say you have stopped but you really only have physically, the sight of a pencil sharpener excites you and you admitted to wanting to do it again. This isn't a good thing to do neither is it healthy, you have friends and family who would hate to know that you used to do that and still think about it :( you aren't helping yourself by purposely seeking out images of people who have done it, I know you have stopped but you need to realise why it's bad and that you shouldn't do it