im sorry okay? im sorry i didnt talk. its hard for me to communicate without wntng to cry again. and when i try to communicate i feel like throwing up. i try to communicate because people said it would make me feel better and it would clear up so many things but that doesnt happen. so i dont say anything and let it rot inside of me until i can stand up on my own two feet. but why didnt you ask me why i never said anything? instead of doing this to me with no explanation, do you think i actually hate you? please im sorry, ill say sorry so many times until you finally forgive me and accept me. dont you love me? didnt you say you wanted to be friends forever? were you lying? is that what you just say to someone? im sorry. its only three days that i didnt come because i cannot face you guys for awhile. i need to be selfish to right? why am i not allowed to be a little selfish before you hurt me again? im sorry