I don't know what's wrong with me anymore. It's like every method to get out of a rut isn't doing it for me the same way anymore. I'm sick of staying inside but when I go outside I'm too tired to stay. My brain can't focus and absorb what I try to study but it feels like it's gonna explode if I'm just watching something, and reading feels too exhausting and I can't seem to finish anything I start. I don't wanna do anything but then I feel bored and in need of doing something, but then not really, not actually. My social capacity isn't the same, so is my tolerance for chaos and noise. I just want to vaporize into thin air and feel as free as the wind with nothing on my mind or in my heart. I don't know what to do anymore and sitting doing nothing feels just as bad. And I am grateful, my life is blessed and beautiful, but sometimes you just feel frustrated, you know? It's just that at some point you want this feeling to pass, cause this burnout has been lingering for too long, hasn't it?