I want to die I don’t want to die I want to kill somebody I don’t want to kill anybody My room is stupid My room is wonderful I am the stupidest person alive I am the only one that can do this I am not ok I am not ok What disorder is this?.?.?.? Do doctors even have any idea all the variety of disorders and illnesses there are and how to treat them and what to do for them? Or are they just “P r a c t i c i n g” medicine?