i dont know why i cant stop when i want to so bad. i thought id look more beautiful with these, but im disgusted everytime i look down at my arms or legs or stomach or any part of my own body. i just want to be clean again, but i also know i cant go back. still, i feel like what ive done isnt even enough, and i want to fill every blank space i see until my skin and blood is practically inverted. my addiction is all i can think about. i cant concentrate on anything, my grades are slipping. even now im just thinking about filling out myself. i hate living like this. i want to live again.
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