Also along with being tired of being on the end of people's shitty behavior (my neighbors) my fam are being awful as well. Yes I know my poor mom suffers but my goodness she's been so freaking out over every little thing and you can hardly speak and she wonders why I m so angry. Then another family member is on a drunken cocktail binge of sorts and ate awful I have to watch them. They bit my head off today going somewhere. I want to quit and give up it's too much stress fear worry anxiety I can't fucking take it. The neighbors wake me up whenever they get up early hours ceiling roaring on purpose because they hate us (I can't help my fam smoke yet they themselves VAPE SMH) my gosh I'm only human i can't take anymore sigh 😔. Does fam wanna put a bullet in me or something yet dealing with what I do in a day your head would explode. Fuck this place fuck the shitty neighbors fuck my fans drunks AHHHHGHHGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH