Maybe I’m just not a good friend? I see ppl hang out and have fun and live life but I’ve never seemed to fit into that crowd. I see people get gifts for each other and celebrate each other’s accomplishments and it looks so fulfilling to connect that way. But I feel like I can’t. Sure, I can be polite, and talk with proper posture and a smile, but I won’t remember anyone’s Birthday, and I don’t know anyone’s favourite song or snack or colour or character. I don’t have any funny stories, or jokes or good humour. I can laugh at your jokes, but I sure don’t have anything else to add. I don’t even remember if I talked to anyone last week. I don’t want to ask to hang out, too much pressure. But I still find myself staring at people, waiting for them to say hi, to look in my direction, ask to meet up. I keep thinking about how lonely I am, but I never have enough energy to initiate conversations. I don’t have anything to offer to people.