why cant i just focus and do my work like im supposed to why am i so uncomfortable in my own skin i am constantly frustrated at myself so much so that i cant stop hitting myself and even if i take away every electronic i cant focus and when i have no time left to do my work i try not to look elsewhere and try to focus even punishing myself when i get distracted when i look at the time 5 hours went by with only one sentence written im so useless i cant even take care of myself nor am i conventionally attractive idk i just wish i could do what i need to do i dont know whats wrong with me and why im this slow at everything and my parents just call me a media addicted teen who cant do anything right and that i’ll never amount to anything and i know its true but i hate to acknowledge it because that means my existence is worthless idk the thing i struggle with most is starting at all i just cant start anything and when i finally do its already too late and im just so slow like time vanishes