Since I was young I feel like my parnets never guarded me I was meant walk alone since I was 7 on 10 min walk by myself to school had no friends siblings me on my own. I got bullied alot almost got kidnapped walking by myself to elementary school in the sketchy neighborhood and when living Jane and finch being made walk myself to school my parnsts were careless and was more about my mother and building her career then focusing to raise their daughter I felt hurt betrayed if I wouldv known all family would be left back in Albania where id be all on my own here lonely depressed then why was I born especially when my parnets always put their relationship before me their only child left home by myself. I resent so much they done to not protect me or provide that emotional depth I needed they fukd me up. I dated alot guys to feel something after my mom destroyed my relationship with one friend I was close with . All guys 6 used banged me left me pretended to love me I really jist wanted