I’m not psychically attracted to my girlfriend. I’ve been in an online relationship with her for months and she makes my days brighter and makes me so happy, but I can’t bring myself to like her looks. I already struggle with depression and I’m generally mentally ill, and if I leave her I don’t think I’m gonna find someone as good as her that I’m also attracted too. I feel awful for feeling this way because I don’t want to lie to her face and tell her I think she’s beautiful just because it makes her happy, but I also don’t want to leave her because when I was single for so long I was spiraling about not having a relationship and it brought me into a really dark place. This relationship took me out of that dark place, and I don’t want to go back to the way it was. I genuinely don’t know what to do expect not meet up with her and real life. I really hope this doesn’t make me a horrible person because I truly do love her.