Tw, suicide stuff. I've decided how to do it. Tonight, I'll take a knife and leave. I'll leave the house and go somewhere no one will be able to stop me. Goodbye everyone. I won't tell all of you to hang in there, that would be hypocritical, but just talk to someone before you try it. Remember, if it doesn't help, you can always just do it after the talk. Trying to reach out is better than nothing. Though I guess that's hypocritical too because I'm not doing it. I just want this here for proof I guess. Idk. I live out in the sticks, so if my body is eaten by an animal before they find it, they can at least unlock my phone and see it was all planned. I don't want to put it in my notes app because then they may never find it bc of how much shit I've got in there. I'm sorry if I ruin someone's day with this, truly, so I'm going to add a trigger warning. I hope everyone else has a great life, I wish you all good times, good health, and good fortune. Take care and stay safe.