idk why im like this im so disgusted by myself i hate how i think how i do i always say to other people "hows your day" to make myself feel better by being there for people but actually i just want to live like that i always wanna be the bigger person the therapist friend the sunshine of the friend group i give advice that i actually dont even follow im so disgusting and i always though iy was just a phase everybody goes through this i feel so alone and selfish i always though being depressed is just selfish and self centered and always say im fine im better than before i always like psychology because its interesting but not only that its because i want to know why am i like this why are they like this why are they not happy? ell thats all thanks for reading this btw