i’m so tired mentally i want to give up on life and i know how that sounds - but it’s not because my life in inherently bad i mean my family loves me i think and i have a wonderful partner currently but every night i sit in bed and i hate every fiber of myself and my life , i hate waking up, i hate everything. with what’s causing these feelings , it’s not some big sob story and i think that’s why i feel like i don’t deserve to feel this way, my mums nice to me i guess she spends loads of money on me even though she doesn’t have much, she tells me she loves me and is proud of me , she gets me into therapy and she’s painted herself as the hero of my life but i just can’t accept it, if she was such a hero why does she hurt me in private ? she tells me things like i should’ve been born mute because u never shut up, or how i need everything to be about me because i struggle with mental health, every time she speaks i feel rage inside me. idk this was just a random rant .