School is so utterly maddening! I like to say I have friends but I'm not too sure anymore, am I that annoying? No matter how nice I am, no matter if I do things for them or buy them things just because they ask it just doesn't feel enough yk? I have to keep doing more and more for them and I'm starting to feel like they don't actually like me as much as they like my money. It's just starting to feel lonely now, I feel like a background character in my life and everyone else's. I think I should've stayed the quiet type, I regret even opening my mouth. I'll go back to being quiet I don't like how I made myself extroverted just for people to disappoint me. I'm not just the "rich spoiled classmate" I don't want to have to buy people things for them to like me. I just feel used and it sucks like ew.