I genuinely feel so fucked up because people in my life are all like "Oh I won't leave you I'm loyal" and then boom they all leave its genuinely so annoying to see people drift off when you thought u have something special with them. I feel so overwhelmed and it pisses me off so bad to see people have actual long friendships when I have no friends and basically no social life. All the friends I have are just some pixels on a screen not even knowing if they're real or not.