I feel nothing I feel worthless I feel everything at once , I am always expected to be perfect all the time and my feelings don’t matter I am told that I have to be perfect to get a good life . I carry everyone’s weight on my shoulders and the moment I show a smidge of weakness suddenly Im not good enough anymore just something useful that can be thrown away when it stops working my dreams either are shown off or are “stupid and silly “ I do everything in my power to be good enough but I just can’t I can’t be perfect I can’t be amazing I can’t be everything I can’t be what I’m not And I think to myself if I left would anyone care? Would anyone notice? But I can’t leave I have to much I have people to take care of People who need me But the thought of someone genuinely loving me doesn’t seem real to me it feels foreign the fact that someone actually caring for me and not judging me seems impossible There is an impossible weight on my shoulders and I don’t know what to do Welp okay. :)