sometimes i just wish i was alone. that the only thing i had to take care of and care about was me. i know that's selfish but i'm so tired. i'm tired and i'm sad and i don't know how to not be those things. i feel like they're just a part of who i am and these feelings are just ingrained inside me now. i hate that i feel like i can't be sad and i have to hide it because, as you tell me whenever i'm anything but happy, you're sad when i'm sad. as if i can help it. as if i could stop because it bums you out. i don't know. i'm tired. leave me alone.