Hello, Im such a loser and I have no friends at school. Yes I do have a friend group who i definitely do not deserve, because all I do is sit there and say nothing. I think they r getting sick of it and today they said "we know nothing about you say something..." and then they kept pressuring me to say a story, so I said some random stuff and they were like "BORINGGG MAKE US LAUGH" and they didnt even care and moved on to the next topic by making it obvious. After a bit they said think for the next two periods and at lunch tell us something or your getting kicked out (I know they r joking but still). Mind you didn't even want to see them at lunch. I hate myself so fucking much makes me want to kms even though I wont. I want to talk I want to be lively with them, they have done so much for me but I cant think of anything, I just shut down. Ever since moving schools ive been like this. Used to be so loud so fortunate so happy. Now I'm just depressing.