why am I so emotionally/mentally(?) squirmy when it comes to illness stuff like in fiction or when someone talks about a time when I got sick, junk like that? why? and why am I ok with it in big bang theory or everybody hates Chris when I see it in fiction but not in stuff like let's say animaniacs, koth (unless the episode from koth that triggers whatever this is is like background noise I'm guessing but even then I don't know)... what is up with me!? What the hell is going on in my mind!?!? Is it a phobia, is it an overreaction, am I an insensitive jerk, what's happening to me!? I wouldn't say I'm scared, I just feel some sort of like, mental/emotional(?) discomfort that makes me squirm and wanna click off, go to the next picture (if it's fanart or something), or to the next episode. I have said this once. I will say it again. What. Is. Happening. To. me!? What is with my brain!? Why is it like this? I can sit through 2007 sweeney todd but can't gawk at fanart where somebody's sick!?