I feel like I'm so absolutely lost in life that IDK what to do. The only passion I've ever really had is making YouTube gaming videos, and even though I've been doing it for 4 years, I never got higher than 2 thousand Subscribers, while I see these other people upload their first video (It's not particularly good) and they get 30k Subs. And I'm not saying "Wow, I DESERVE support" I know my videos aren't the best or professional. I just feel so trapped that I can't do anything right at all, and if my channel never succeeds, I'll be even more hollow and depressed than I already feel everyday. And regular day to day life just keeps kicking me in the ass, I feel like I can't talk to people anymore, make new friends, I hate working my dead end loser job, I can't connect with my family because they won't hear me about how I feel I don't even want them to change anything about it or do anything, I just want them to realize I'm hurting really bad and that every day feels like a struggle