i feel like i am wasting my teenage years. im 15 and my parents hate when i go out even at 2am there's nowhere to even go anyways. nobody has parties anymore. nobody wants to date someone like me and i feel like puberty is making me uglier and more mature. you're not supposed to say that because looking like a kid is questionable but i feel ugly and grown and i wish i wasn't. i don't know how to describe it i just don't want to be an adult or grown. but what am i supposed to do. join a club? play a sport? why? i just feel alone. and i was looking at pictures of me from about a year ago and i'm like what is going wrong with me i don't understand