i know my problems are pretty small compared to other people but i cant really get help for anything im feeling currently. i have parents that verbally and emotionally abuse me, i have a savior complex and tend to try and be perfect for everyone. i dont really see value to my life no matter what i do or how much i try i just dont care about myself. im starting to lack in hygiene, im stressed out about everything, my partner has pretty bad problems so i always try to help. i love them but im tired i cant keep doing it, it sounds corny but i barely remember the last time i truly laughed or smiled. i havent eaten in 2 days ive done nothing but cry everyday then act normal around my peers. i cant stand myself, im slowly breaking myself down and no matter how much i try i cant do anything about it. i feel helpless, i have nobody to turn to i dont want to bother anyone with my problems. i dont know how long i can keep the whole "im fine" act going. i might get put into a mental hospital.