feels a little odd as most users on here appear to be under-21 but the issues that i want to vent about makes me feels as though i'm a teen again. never been in love or a relationship and it feels as though no-one at this age wants any of that while i crave it intensely. or maybe i crave friendship? even then, both with me will take a long time to build. i'm so worried about scaring people off with my intensity of emotions, of interests and support. i can never tell if everyone is scared of affection or if i'm too much? i have no-one of a similar age to confide in, to open up to. i did but i was too much for them. i don't want to be handled, i just wish for a physical space to be made for me to feel comfortable in, rather than be alone, screaming into a void. i sometimes wish i can start a new canvas but life always leaves remnants behind; some helpful, some painful and some frozen in time.