I wish I could die. That's the long and short of it. Anytime I bring up being unsatisfied with where I'm at I get "it's going to be worth it eventually! You're so inspiring to have goals still!" I'm not. I'm not fucking inspiring. I wish I were dead. I wish I had killed myself when I had the option. I'm like a walking corpse. No job, no friends, didn't finish school. An ugly little fucking bastard that's going nowhere. I can't admit it to anyone I know but I just want to die. It doesn't feel worth it. I'm depressed and I feel like I barely function. I'll be 20 in 2 days and in 2 days I'll have wasted half my teen years stuck inside and alone, barely even human. I want to die.
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