Ya know those people who think more logically? That is not me. I feel too much. My heart has been overfilled with too much. I just care too much for one person to. The part of your brain that’s supposed to be logical, there’s too much heart in me. I just want people to understand that every little comment, every little compliment, insult, whatever… that can hurt me more than a million bullets ever could. I never understood why or how I could possibly be like this, and so therefore that’s one question no amount of the scientific method, digging-up-Freud could ever provide answers. I wish I had the mentality of “IDGAF” but I do. I do give a fuck. I give infinity fucks. I give a million billion fucks. You know, I wish I could just tell people about my problems, but it always feels like a chore and a responsibility to do so. Like, other people AND addressing my problems in one? Like holy total nightmare. And to be completely honest, without my fandoms and such, I would’ve been dead a looo