I'm not really sure what to do to fix my relationship. I love her so very much and I know she loves me too but lately, for the past couple of months I just have been so so drained. I have been pushing her away and getting distant but I don't even realize it sometimes and I truly think it's been some form of depression. I haven't dealt with anything emotionally though I've just been smoking it away and now i feel so different. I feel so much but it's all compressed and have lost all of my creativity and a lot of my memory. I have felt so unhappy with my life and I have totally let it get to our relationship. Shes noticed how bland and how down I've become but she's mistaking it for me falling out of love and I can't seem to convince her otherwise... Now I'm realizing it more but how do I even start to fix things? We both agree that we want to be so much closer and so much happier but we’ve been stuck. Now we've been together for just over a year and I'm scared because I want so much for