Idk what's wrong with me. I'm a month clean of self harm but I cant help but want it more and more badly. I cant get help, I cant sleep, I cant defend myself.. my only best friend who gets me moved provinces, and my bf doesn't get me like he used to. And Im scared of what he'll say if I told him simply "Im struggling." I almost cried today at school because my anxiety is just SO bad and I can't handle it anymore. My brother is constantly being sexist and homophobic, my bf hates that I'm bisexual and non-binary like I'm not a person too. My parents don't take care of me as much as they care for my brother and I just don't know anymore... my insecurities are TERRIBLE, too. I wrote down 1 thing I love about myself and 147 things I hate about myself.