Envy For most of my life I've thought that getting a partner was one of the most fulfilling accomplishments in life, whenever I see a couple or a friend talk about "how hard it is to find the right person" while they have their 34th relationship this year I can feel it: Envy, I envy all of these people due to the fact that I don't even have a chance in dating and these people are so privileged and still manage to jiggle it in front of my face like a reminder that I will never be good enough for anyone to love me.