I know i'm unstable but honestly it's too the point i just can't ignore it, i'm a horrible person, i'm as close as those internet guys people make fun of for being a chud, i can't manage my emotions cause i've long gone stopped caring about it, i've gone from understanding and empathetic to arrogant and apathetic within a span of a year, i really don't think i should be around people and i'm constantly isolated only for a few minutes of interactions with my friends online, i really think i've ruined my life i know i'm tired and this might be the cause of emotional burnout that questions most or all my problems but i noticed too late, i don't know how to break it to my friends, the friends i broke up into ones when we used to be a friend group and the fact i've done this nearly every year doesn't help, i seriously don't know cause i know one of them is already sick of it and already sees the pattern