I feel like my family hates me and I wanna kill myself but I'm to scared and I don't know what to do I feel weak and sensitive, I fucking hate my life so much I hate my family and myself, I wanna starve myself again. I wanna cry but I'm scared and my heart is aching and I'm mentally tired and exhausted but I can't tell my mom because I feel like she wouldn't understand. School is killing me and so are my thoughts, my brother, mom and dad yell at me so much I just want a different family and a different life