Had kidney stones 2 months ago and my kidneys/back/abdomen havent stopped hurting and Im scared my kidneys are failing and I havent been able to get my blood drawn yet. They keep trying for a vein and can't get it. I wish every labs office had an ultrasound vein finder. i have shitty veins through no fault of my own, i have fibromyalgia and i try to stay hydrated but I have other conditions which make me nauseous and throw up a lot . I'm so scared. I try to take care of myself and balance the benefits of my medications with the dangers of their side effects but it's so hard to manage. I try to stick to weed when im in pain because it has never affected me negatively except for coughing sometimes. unlike prescription pain meds and muscle relaxers and loads of NSAIDS burning thru my organs or god forbid, street drugs when i couldnt get a doctor to take me seriously. I hate being chronically ill. I hate myself so much.