I know it’s dumb to still be thinking about someone 3 years after breaking up. I’m trying not to. I’ll go a period of time without it. Then I’ll have a dream that feels insanely real. I can hear her voice I can smell her I can feel her. But I wake up. And it’s another day. Those 3.5 years were the happiest moments. I can honestly say that I have never opened up more to another human being. And so now, I just can’t talk to people. For the first year I was looking for her every where. And then the second year I noticed that I would look for qualities of her in other people. None of this is healthy I know that. And I know that I’m stuck in the past and all that bs. I really loved her and she really loved me. But we kept having issues with sex that made me question how much she loves me. And she’d start talking about one coworker a lot and spending more time with coworkers after work. But I was struggling with stuff from my childhood so I let things play out. I am dumb miss u Saharra -D