I want to kill myself so bad I can't handle feeling things anymore I do have like two close friends but I always have thoughts about how people's lives would be more convenient without me in it, especially with my mother who's very tired of me always being anxious and not having energy to do things, she's so sick of me her life would be more easy without me The only thing I find true comfort in these days are my fantasies about me ending my life I don't want to try at anything anymore I just want to kill myself