I am frustrated. I feel like a large Omni present evil entity is watching me casting judgment and laughing. The amount of dramatic irony I have been subjected to is comical. Me and my best friend dated on and off but ultimately she said she didn’t love me like that and would rather be friends. This was soul crushing enough but I’m very serious about boundaries so I complied. Talking to her is daunting, I love her so and she knows. I know she knows. I feel pathetic I’m the only one who remotely cares for her but she doesn’t want me. She says she misses her old girlfriend, her old girlfriend left her because she was actually straight and miss identified. This is where it gets soul crushing. All I ever hear is “I wish she still loved me” but she doesn’t love you does she? No. She doesn’t love you how does it feel? I know you miss her because she said she loved you, dated you for a whole year before leaving… it’s almost like… you did that to me too? How do you feel breaking my heart?