I'm just so tired man. i want someone to just really be there and just listen while i just dump everything I hate about my life and why i don't even know of i should keep going. im such a fucking loser i had to resort to finding this place. i know all of this is my fault and i know if i just put more effort i could fix it but I'm such a lazy pos. my closest friend killed herself and i didn't even try. if I had just said anything to check on her maybe i wouldn't be in this situation. I'm one of 4 guys in my medical academy class and i feel so isolated and lost. my friend makes fun of me for being lonely but it's started to set it. it's all my fault and i know it. i hurt prople without wanting to even though I say I care. im just so tired of wishing my life was different or i lived another person's life. i feel so angry that im pissing and crying about all of this even though I know if i tried more i could do better.