Why does my mom don't like me? I mean I think she loves me but she clearly hates me too more than she shows to love me. I feel so alien inside our own household. But why do i still feel guilty and sympathy? Like I don't blame her. I know that if we're not blood related we'll never get along but I don't know I don't understand me either. I get her. Only if I choose not to be born so she can be free from the burden of having me. I could never be able to form a single opinion about her. In the end, we're just two girls who deserved so much better. She had me, but i never had her. I feel like I'm the main problem here. If I was never born, we would be free from all our problems. I feel like being here, just existing, worsens both our situations. She releases all her regrets on me, I'm her worst enemy while I'm just catching all the pain that I didn't even want in the first place. I need her but does she want me?