I just feel so terrible. Like everything in my life sucks right now and I don't have the power to change any of it. I still live with my parents, and I don't have motivation to look for jobs that would get me out. I don't have my own car, and I work two jobs that are stressing me out so bad I keep getting headaches and ulcers. My tiktok account is failing right before I am about to hit 10k followers. People online are mean and I wonder what I'm even doing anymore. It's also taking up so much of my time that I forget my hobbies and who I am. I'm flirting with someone online who left me on read today. I physically feel awful all the time and can barely stand on my feet. I'm skipping meals and not hydrating enough but I can't bring myself to. I feel like a burden to my family and I feel like my friends don't like me. The one friend I had in person ghosted me. I feel untalented and depressed and with no friends actually in person like the biggest loser of all time.