im a junior in college and im dreading having to graduate and be an adult. my major is oversaturated and too competitive im afraid i wont get a job. i dont want to disappoint my family. i dont want to make them work harder to support me bc i cant support myself. but im struggling and miserable and if it werent for how much money and time my family has spent on me then i would have killed myself a long time ago. but now im already here and its too late to do it now so i just have to keep going. every day i fantasize about just ending it all now.