I feel so guilty for being the way I am. I have a proper family, not rich but just enough to live properly and not work just to go to school like the others but instead of being a proper child to my parents I became a disappointment. I don't struggle much with lessons like the other teens in my school. I get decent/good grades despite not trying much and being held back by being an antisocial shy kid and yet here I am, absent for over 1 week when I'm in my most important grade since I'll be graduating soon(probably/probably not). I also still don't know what I want for college or life for that matter. I feel so shitty right now. If only my mind and body just listens and stops messing around