Im faketrans agp malefailure lying to myself because i want some escape and i deluded myself into thinking that i could have a way out i had to read 1000 fucking sneedy reddit bullshit threads so that i could trick myself then i lied to myself for a month and now my life is fucked because im a little dumbass bitch who tricked himself into feeling dysphoric just so that i had an excuse to feel like shit I will never be a woman if i was i would be saying “oh i wish i was trans” id have known by myself without having to try and delude myself into thinking i could ever fix my shitty life and now i cant even do therapy without talking about this because all my mental issues stem from this bullshit i tried for a month to ignore it but i couldnt and i caved and now im even more fucked i groomed myself into the worst existence possible because i wanted to be special now im cutting myself for attention i should just rope it would be better than living like a confused fucked up mess