MY BIRTHDAY WAS ACTUALLY SO FUCKING TERRIBLE. I WAITED TWO WHOLE FUCKING HOURS FOR A TEXT AND GOT FUCKING NOTHING. i cried myself to sleep today. not even my cousins remembered my birthday. only one told me happy birthday, i had to fucking TELL her it was my birthday. i fucking hate myself so much, i'm just a pathetic loser who cant handle anything but i didnt even get told happy birthday by my own sister, and my parents said it but after hours of it being my birthday, i only got told happy birthday by three friends, my parents, three random people online, my cousin, and my bf. atleast thats 10 people, i should just be fucking grateful i even got told happy birthday. why am i so pathetic?, i wanted to commit tn but i cant bring myself to do it. but if i didnt all the pain would be gone, but what about my two cats?, my dog, my bf, my online friends, my sister, two brothers, my parents, my grandma, my COUSINS. i'd let them all down, im such a fucking mistake i hate myself so fucking much