(Take care everyone, pls search up findahelpline with a .com after it if you need a hotline. Youre loved and youre so important) gosh idk where to even begin with this. my grief over so much is bubbling and i can’t handle it. i don’t know who to turn to or who will understand me. its such a niche experience really but ive been trying to make ocs and stories again after a horrible experience and its just not working. hindi sya natutupad. lagi ko nlang nawawala, kahit na masipag ako and binibigay ko na ang lahat ko. wala namang kwenta. natutulala lang ako habang iniisip kung ano kaya sana nangyari kung hindi ako nagkulang. kung ang buong sarili ko ay di kulang. Then my hand. I miss my hand. I hate my tendonitis. I miss my shoulder. I was such a good artist, and i find it harder and harder to cling to the belief that i still am somehow. I can draw w my left but its not the same. Bat ako. I loved art more than anything. Ill fall behind. So much.