I fell pain in my writs when I take a shower. Die looks so comfortable, I don't have any reasons to keep alive in this psychological torture made by myself. I can't control how I fell about so stupid shit. People act in a hypocrite way, and it hurts me. Idk how to deal with this, so I slit my body until I lost a lot of blood to get weak and distract my mind from this. Ppl aren't interessing enough, nothing get my attention, I'm just so empty. Antidepressants leave me dead inside, but they help to reduce my anxiety atacks. my black-label medications work, but when the effect wears off, a much worse wave of suffering sets in. my psychiatrist told me that if I stopped taking these medications, I would have to be admitted to a psychiatric clinic. My mental situation is so fcked up.