am i weird? i dont want to be in this body. wish i were a boy. do i? i just want to dress how i want. to dress in a way that makes me happy. acting as a female who acts like a woman, wearing skirts and short tops does not appeal to me. i want to cut my hair short, skateboard, heck, maybe even wear shorts. is that so wrong? my family is so sexist. i cant even wear comfy things. always have to look like a lady. i just want to feel comfortable. sometimes, i wonder if i want to be trans. i dont know, am i scared of the criticism? or do i just want to be a tomboy? i dont know what i want. they always dictate my life. it doesnt feel like mine. it feels like im their puppet, and can only do their whims. this body, is it really mine? i want to be me. please let me be me. why do i have to conform to society? i dont fit in already. i never have. im not "normal". im not "lady-like". what am i? am i an alien? am i even a person?