ever since my father passed I feel like there's a void in my stomach, every single time I see people with their families so happy, I feel so envious. it makes the pit in my stomach feel emptier and emptier. I tried so hard to fill up with people, with love. but no matter how hard I try, I just feel sadder and sadder. so many things in my life have fallen apart. I just wish someone would notice. it feels like I am putting in all this effort to read in between the lines for other people, just for others to dismiss my own feelings. I honestly feel so hopeless some days. I practically live in my own head and don't really talk to anyone. sometimes I wish someone would just go up to me and tell me it's going to be alright. sometimes I wish people would ask me to hang out with them. I feel so lonely and empty and the hole in my stomach is eating me alive. I wish my family could be complete again. sure my mother tries to fill it, but honestly she acts more like a teenager than my mother.